A very, very, very looooooooooooooooooooog weekend!!

I don't want to spend all the time in bed!

I dind't speak to you last night!

I slept soon as I could!!

Weird!

Friday night, asleep!

Midnight...

And I am going to sleep!!..Friday!!

Yeah, this travel is making good for me. Fortunately I am cool, I am relax, I am happy. I don't have plans for tomorrow...or the day after!, but I am ok, I can do it! I need some time for me, some time between work and nothing-to-do!

Sometime for me and Elias, my faihtfull company, more than I could imagine..

I am sorry, but he'll sleep beside me tonight!

I miss my cat!

Miercoles,

Today was a pretty good day. I have been here for 2 months and 5 days. And sometimes I wonder if I did a right thing! All the times I do this a though came in my mind... Maybe I would have a good job in Brasil, I would finish my college, I would be beside him, beside my friends!

My destiny, I guess is better think like that..I am here because I should be. I believe that, I should be here because I wanted this. Was my decision, my choice! My fault!

Here I don't have my mom to say "You can't do that, you can't do this, who do you think you are?"...And I miss her. I wish I could bring her with me! Or my stupid cat, a totally no-reason-to-be-alive animal. 

Is so easy miss the people who loves you. I miss them, but I don't wish to see them now. I must be alone, like the oracle said. I should be here, I am 20 years old, I am pretty, I am a girl. Not a girl anymore, a woman.

A woman who needs to descovery who I really am. Why I am alive! What is my mission?

The humans don't know nothing about feelings. Because of this, and just because of this, I miss my sad-lazy-optioneited- cat!!

MONDAY

Monday, 07-07

I woke early this morning...I think is because the last night, was amazing!

I have just talked to you for 4 hours....And I felt good, I felt happy...Even I know the distance is bigger than everything...I was there, with you!!  I don't know, I can't explain what happened, I felt jealous! Jealous because the computer can feel your touch, and I can't. Jealous for the bus wich take you alone, the hands whom hold you when I am so far away!!

But today is early yet...It is just 11 o'clok in the morning! I hope during the day I will feel good, without miss you!! Yeah, I affraid I will!! Good for me!!

Who knows the day after tomorrow? I don't! If we will be together forever, or if I will return to your embrace, or somenthing like that...

God will look at us, or we will...

Someone needs to!

I cannot do this for myself! I need divine help!! Or at least, divine comprehension!!

Weekend....

Holliday...

3 days...Thursday thru Sunday!!

Amazing, for some days I felt exactly how I feel in my home!! I felt like everything in the world doesn't matter anymore...I didn't care about nothing this days..This 3 beautiful, confuse, and new days...

Thank God for those 3 days....Now my week will begin more calm, more relax...Afterwards, I can do all the things I need to do, with a smile in my face!!

No money, at all...

No plans, too...

Also, without no one...Still!!

But with a blue mark in my heart...

A blue mark in my skin!!!

Back of life?

Como eu nao (til) tenho um teclado que permita acentos e bla, bla, bla, eu vou usar esse espaco (cedilha), pra escrever em ingles (circunflexo), treinar e bom, quando eu precisar escrever em portugues (circunflexo), vou usar esse sistema de escrita!! 

So, Let's go, again!

I am back...I am with a new life, a new style..My days during years, my nights are, sometime, a little confuse...But I am alive. I can feel the other people breath, I can see smiles in kids's faces, I can run away, miles and miles...and sweaty like never in my life...I even can think in Farenheit, Foot, Pounds, small number for feet... 

I can do wherever I want!! I just cannot speak in my voice..I cannot hear my tone.....I don't have no one to talk about my problems, or my beautiful life... 

Actually, I have..Two angels, but I can spend more than 3 days with them...Unfortunately!

Even thought, I cannot speak my language!! This is cool, looks like I don't have problems, or I can live very well without others...That is no true..I need everybody I love near me...I need a Hug, a Kiss, a Cute Word...I putted in capital letter because this things are really importants to me....

I am free....but I am in jail....I like that..I like to feel how is bad be alone...I am learning more things than in my whooooole life..Just in 2 months..

I still have 10....Well, 2, 10, love, hug, are just unreal things...

I hope, I pray, I apreciate, if I can go back to my place just for 10 seconds... And this "10", I garantee, will be not unreal, will be like I am touching the sky....Like a dream coming true!!

Just more 10 months....I am enjoying....I am happy here, but I am not complete!!

This is completely real!!

Au Pair

Se algum dia alguem chegar pra voce e dizer "Eu quero ser Au Pair..", soque-lhe a cara, nao a deixe fazer isso!